Monday, May 12, 2008

1985

In 1985, I placed a bet and lied,
losing all that I had,
at least with all my heart intact.

In 1985, Orwell was proved right,
Torville and Dean’s bolero,
redundant as a sad welsh chapel.
In 1985, in 1985.

So God is dead, like Nietzsche said,
superstition is all we have left.
Circle the wagons, we’re under attack,
we’ve realised there’s no going back,
we’ve realised there’s no going back.

In 1985, the Civil War failed why?,
kept hidden like scars of birth,
nature unable to soften the words.

In 1985, my words they came alive,
friends were made for life,
Morrissey and Marr gave me choice.
In 1985, in 1985.

So God is dead, like Nietzsche said,
only 16 years of age, he said.
See all the tears, for the walking dead,
we’ve realised there’s no going back,
we’ve realised there’s no going back.

In 1985, I placed a bet and lied,
losing all that I had.

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4st 7lb

Days since I last pissed
cheeks sunken and despaired
so gorgeous sunk to six stone
lose my only remaining home
see my third rib appear
a week later all my flesh disappear
stretching taut, cling-film on bone
I’m getting better
Karen says I’ve reached my target weight
Kate and Emma and Kristin know it’s fake
problem is diet’s not a big enough word
I wanna be so skinny that I rot from view
I want to walk in the snow
and not leave a footprint
I want to walk in the snow
and not soil its purity
stomach collapsed at five
lift up my skirt my sex is gone
naked and lovely and 5st. 2
may I bud and never flower
my vision’s getting blurred
but I can see my ribs and I feel fine
my hands are trembling stalks
and I can feel my breasts are sinking
mother trys to choke me with roast beef
and sits savouring her sole ryvitta
that’s the way you’re built my father said
but I can change, my cocoon shedding
I want to walk in the snow
and not leave a footprint
I want to walk in the snow
and not soil its purity
Kate and Kristin and Kit Kat
all things I like looking at
too weak to fuss, too weak to die
choice is skeletal in everybody’s life
I choose, my choice, I starve to frenzy
hunger soon passes and sickness soon tires
legs bend, stockinged I am Twiggy
and I don’t mind the horror that surrounds me
self-worth scatters, self-esteem’s a bore
I long since moved to a higher plateau
this discipline’s so rare so please applaud
just look at the fat scum who pamper me so
yeh 4st. 7, an epilogue of youth
such beautiful dignity in self-abuse
I’ve finally come to understand life
through staring blankly at my navel.
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A Design for Life

Libraries gave us power
Then work came and made us free
But what price now for a shallow piece of dignity

I wish I had a bottle
Right here in my dirty face to wear the scars
To show from where I came

We don’t talk about love we only want to get drunk
And we are not allowed to spend
As we are told that this is the end

A design for life x4

I wish I had a bottle
Right here in my pretty face to wear the scars
To show from where I came

We don’t talk about love we only want to get drunk
And we are not allowed to spend
As we are told that this is the end

A design for life x4

We don’t talk about love we only want to get drunk
And we are not allowed to spend
As we are told that this is the end

A design for life x4

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A Song For Departure

And all the masks I carry on my face
For you, for another
Some calm and then some grace
But once within a long and broken night
A face like mine, bereft of dreams and white

This is a song, this is a song
a song for a departure
This is a song
This is a song, this is a song
a song to take you homewards
This is a song

Maybe this strangeness only ever was
To hide ourselves from some kind of happiness
But always the moment it just seems to stay
Tearing it off like so many calendar days

This is a song, this is a song
a song for a departure
This is a song
This is a song, this is a song
a song to break your heart to
This is a song

This is a song, this is a song
a song for broken lovers
This is a song
This is a song, this is a song
a song to take you homewards
This is a song
This is a song, this is a song
a song to break your heart to
This is a song

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A Vision of Dead Desire

Primary prole MP judge general policeman
Figureheads sucked in as just another token
To sell your culture and tolerate another
Annihilation in the pursuit of self-love corruption

Vision of dead desire - tune in reception control
Vision of dead desire - underclass coma zone

Don’t pacify your life to suit dead law convention
White trash held up as just more gold chain icons
State fed lies charm empty eyes
Happy thoughts a unity death smile of acceptance

Vision of dead desire - mainline on a death fix
Vision of dead desire - bleed the thought of throwing bricks

Europe land, realise your thoughts
Kill all ruling class laws

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Ain’t Goin’ Down

Praying that you’ll fall down soon (fall soon)
And your guiltless sex will break in two (break in two)
We brought you sensitivity and you never knew

No we ain’t going down
No we ain’t going down

I get down to nothing and jumbled up again (up again)
Praying your injection is just too good to end (good to end)
When the summer’s gone you know it’s dead

No we ain’t going down
No we ain’t going down

No we ain’t going down
No we ain’t going down
No we ain’t going down
No we ain’t going down

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All Alone Here

The dreams of the city
Leave no room for self pity
We’re all alone here
So all alone here

Always make the difference
Even when there is no chance
We’re all alone here
So all alone here

And the Bethlehem radio is crystal clear and beautiful
We’re all alone here
So all alone here

We’re all alone here…

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Always / Never

Always, never on my mind
Always, always out of time
Always, always letting someone down
Always, always wanting more
Always, always stand-alone
Always, always getting something wrong

Longing for, it’s been a long time longing for
To carry the sky away

Always, never said I’ve done
Always, always change my mind
Always, always trying to succeed
Always, never facing you
Always, never being true
Always, always gonna be this way

Longing for, it’s been a long time longing for
To carry the sky away

Always, never
Always, never
Always, never
Always, never
Always

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Sunday, May 4, 2008

Another Invented Disease

Drugs come out of boredom babe
U.N. exports it everyday
Their armies feed the ghetto lame
Government approve it just the same

Daylight bores the sunshine out of me
I need to feel alone amongst the weeds
Daylight bores the sunshine out of me
I need to feel, I need to feel, I need to feel, I need to feel

We need and we will always need
Another invented disease
We need and we are taught to need
Another invented disease

Left alone in corporate slums
Where germs are free not amex fun
Healthy bodies in empty minds
Only exist in advert time

Daylight bores the sunshine out of me
I need to feel alone amongst the weeds
Daylight bores the sunshine out of me
I need to feel, I need to feel, I need to feel, I need to feel

We need and we will always need
Another invented disease
We need and we are taught to need
Another invented disease

Sunk deep in my T.V.
Maybe sucked the soul from within me

We need and we will always need
Another invented disease
We need and we are taught to need
Another invented disease

We need and we will always need
Another invented disease
We need and we are taught to need
Another invented disease

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Archives of Pain

If hospitals cure
then prisons must bring their pain
do not be ashamed to slaughter
the centre of humanity is cruelty
there is never redemption
any fool can regret yesterday
nail it to the House of Lords
You will be buried in the same box as a killer, as a killer, as a killer
a drained white body hanging from the gallows
is more righteous that Hindley’s crotchet lectures
pain not penance, forget martyrs, remember victims
the weak die young and right now we crouch to make them strong
kill Yeltsin, who’s saying? Zhirinovsky, Le Pen, Hindley and Brady, Ireland, Allit, Sutcliffe, Dahmer, Nielson, Yoshinori Ueda, Blanche and Pickles, Amin, Milosovic
Give them respect they deserve
give them the respect they deserve
execution needed
a bloody vessel for your peace
if man makes death then death makes man
tear the torso with horses and chains
killers view themselves like they view the world, they pick at the holes
not punish less, rise the pain
sterilise rapists, all I preach is extinction
kill Yeltsin, who’s saying? Zhirinovsky, Le Pen, Hindley and Brady, Ireland, Allit, Sutcliffe, Dahmer, Nielson, Yoshinori Ueda, Blanche and Pickles, Amin, Milosovic
give them respect they deserve
give them the respect they deserve
give them the respect they deserve
give them the respect they deserve.
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